Devastated

 I’m so devastated. Too sad feel like want to have a long run. Sadly I don’t have much energy to run. 

Struggle

 Hi, it has been 4 years 6 months..

About 4 years ago, I wrote about future and struggle in life. I believe everyone has their own struggles and terms of happiness.

Okay, mine still struggling. I struggle a lot in life. Honestly, I feel lost right now. 4 years ago, I wrote about future. Well the future about 4 years ago is now. What happened to me after 4 years?

1. First, completed my Bachelor's degree in Chemical Engineering. 

2. Pandemic (covid19) arise, I'm struggling to land a job = unemployed until now. Some people said my course is hard to get a job, I'm quite mad actually hmm.

3. Feel sad and lost, I started to find a new way. I try to make my own business. Small business. Selling food and beverages. Struggle a little bit but I try. 

I have a dream. I'm afraid that my life would be meaningless. Seems right now I don't achieve anything yet. I'm sad but I will try my best!

Not in a million years , I imagine I will involve in a business..

Not in a million years, I imagine I will unemployed for a long time..

Not in a million years.....

I feel life is so hard but I have to keep moving. Of course I cry a lot. I do feel giving up.  Everything just not go as what I planned. Do not know what will happens next. Honestly, I'm afraid and lost but I need to do what I'm supposed to do. The scariest part is the future. Can't see the future but what you have to do right now is just live the moment.

REMEMBER!! 

If you (myself) read this blog again in the future and you still struggling in your life,

YOU WILL NOT GIVE UP!! LIVE FOR THE MOMENT AND SOON LIFE WILL GET BETTER!! BE PATIENT EVEN IT SEEMS TAKING FOREVER. EVENTUALLY, YOU WILL BE OKAY.

Future

Greetings everybody who are reading my blog,I would like to say thank you for wasting your time reading mine :)

Just open up my gallery and seeing this old photo,a lot of thoughts just pop up in my mind.


                      


Back to the year when I was in standard 6,none of us know what the future was until today. Today,either some of us success with their study but fail in a relationship or some of us success with both of it,it does not matter anymore as we understand what life is. 


P/s:Struggling with life without knowing what the future is just like you are seeing a darkness but you still proceed with what you are doing until the lights on.Don't worry, have faith, the good things will come for those who are never giving up.